Nothing is Impossible

Always questioning myself

2012-02-19T22:03:00.000-08:00

I question myself, a lot. But who doesn’t question themselves at times. Lately I seem to be questioning myself more than other times. Questioning myself about Kung Fu, can I do this? How will I do this? Questioning myself about my self image, am I in shape or not? And most of all, questioning my attitude towards others. I seem to be one of the more stable people in my social group. One of my friends suffers from teenager depression (the world hates me when it really doesn’t), one of my friends has horrible self image, and one of my friends has a serious eating disorder. I try and help all of them. Is this right? I'm not sure. My eating disorder friend is one of my closest friends. The friend who thinks the world hates them, should I try and help? Because every time I try it goes nowhere. Should I even try to help my friends? For who am I to help these people?

My self image is always in doubt. Mostly about my fitness. That is a constant struggle that my Dad is helping me through. Providing exercises and such.

My Kung Fu. That says a lot right there. MY kung fu. There is so much hard work ahead of me. I look at the five new black belts and say wow; I want to be just like them. But it is hard work. My training is going okay. I'm still trying to find a way to balance this half of my life with school and homework. But it feels really cool when I practice as it always does. I guess I kind of lost the rhythm of training everyday (even if it’s just for ten minutes) but I'm coming back, with a vengeance.

That’s what is going on in my head right now. I don't know if it seems selfish or not, or if I'm just acting like the typical stupid teenager, but its how I feel.

But here is the start of a new week.

Sihings helping Sihings, what could be better?

2012-02-11T15:30:00.000-08:00

On Wednesday day night in the Blue/Brown class, Sifu Playter asked the class to grab their curriculums. They did and so did the Sihings. While the class was finding questions to ask, most of the Sihings stood at the back, not really sure what to do. Sifu Kichko came over to us, creating a little group, and told us that we should be finding questions too. We couldn’t really ask them during one of these classes, but on Friday night, we could ask as many as we liked. Friday was and is our night. Once Sifu left, we then started to ask questions and help each other out with what we know or in my case didn’t.

My next experience of Sihings helping Sihings was yesterday at opening training. My partner and I were reviewing the white/yellow curriculum and there was some stuff we didn’t know. So we asked an available Sihing. Through the process of question and answering, another Sihing tagged along. We all got to review some stuff like wrist escapes and cross stepping. It was cool, to say the least.

Now that I am a Sihing, I am seeing firsthand how awesome it is to be part of such a helpful bunch. It feels like the Sihing class is a family inside of the Kung Fu family and it is really neat to be a part of. I am still learning a lot of the curriculum and I feel like the Sihings are helping me along to, even though I’m the newbie in town.

They, the Sihings, are a great Kung Fu resource and I'm proud to be one of them.

And so the journey begins...

2012-02-05T20:08:00.000-08:00

On Saturday, Jan. 28/12, my mom (Sifu Kichko) got her black belt. I cannot help but be inspired by her, for she is and will always be my role model. Now, I think it is my turn. A couple weeks ago, I got my second degree brown belt. This was my first step on my way to following mom's steps. My plan is to grade in 2013 and with the good grace of God and tons of luck I will get my black belt in 2014. I'll admit, for the past couple of years I haven't been the most active in my training. But with a new belt, comes new habits. I want to work hard and get somewhere. Yesterday during open training, I worked with my training partner, Chantal Prince on our curriculum. This is for lack of a better word, refreshing. She had tons of energy to help me, and we worked through most of the adult curriculum, focusing on the things we could improve on. I feel pumped. During this year, I plan to work on my forms, kicks, strength, falling to the ground issues and building a habit of training every day. So this is the very start of my journey to black belt.